The unfortunate event..

One of the things I dread the most is falling in love. It is amazing to be loved and to love but what really scares me in the whole scenario, is the hurts and the pains that comes to follow after that. 

I am kind of going out with this guy. He is amazing in so many ways, he in his own way manages to treat me like a lady. He is the type of guy you see your friends with, you know the ones who are truly, madly deeply in love with your friends, and they will have you jealously sighing in one corner wishing on every stars that it was you who is with this guy..

I dont know him that much yet but so far he has somewhat made my lonely heart pathetically miserable on wanting to be with him on every possible occasion.. I am more afraid now of saying something stupid, or making a fool of myself.. I hate myself for missing him all the time.. I hate it when he always makes me laugh, and I hate it when he knows exactly what to do make me not get mad at him. I hate that he is always late but he has a thing of making me forget he is late…I especially hate the way he makes me feel this way about him…

I am shit scared of falling.. But what if he turns out to be one of those guys the society labels as jerks? but what if he turns out to hurt me worse than the previous break ups? I dont want to go through the same pain again, the same excruciatingly heart crushing pain of having someone tear your heart into millions of tiny little pieces… Dear God please dont let this one break me worse than the rest…

~ by somebody003 on November 21, 2008.